day 02-- where you'd like to be in 10 years

This is really tough. I never liked to plan for my future. I somehow really wish that 2012 comes true.. It would be a relief. It would be complete release. We always complain about how hard life is now, but I know life is going to be a lot harder next time. I think I won't even have the time to emo or wallow in self pity anymore because I will constantly be worrying about bills, bills, bills. House, electricity, phone, water, internet, credit card, transport, tv, daily necessities. Sigh. Unless you earn a lot, it's really pointless to live when you only earn enough to pay bills off to survive. Get it? You work to pay the bills to live. Then may as well die? I really wish * fingers crossed x 10000 * I can earn more than I spend next time, I want an extremely comfortable life. I want to be able to make choices. Not filthy rich, but rich enough that I can have choices yknow? Like.. I can afford a Chanel anytime.. It's just whether I want to or not. I'm not even talking about Hermes! I've accepted that it's out of my reach, unless my husband is $_$ LOL. Even if I am able to afford it I don't think I will buy it also la.. the thought of how the cheapest bag can provide a low income family for a year, makes it way too extravagant.

In 10 years, I'll be 30? Ew? That's damn gross. If I'm still alive, I'd want to be married already? idk... or at least cohabiting with my bf? Or gf? LOL!!! No la. kidding only. My mom will be around 60? I actually already want to have kids then? I mean 60 is the age to be a grandmother right? Sigh. It's a pain to think about the future... I don't think I want to get married la. The thought of being together with one person for the rest of your life scares me. It scares me even more to think that you have put everything in that person, your trust, your love, your money... and what if, it turns out that, he doesn't feel the same way about you? It's too scary.... I just hope that I'll have a good job that pays well and give my family a comfortable life. Anything else is a bonus :)