Loneliness is self-induced

Oh hi~ Stuff I came across while packing my room:

All types of cards

 But only one queen of (my) heart(s)

 Chanced upon this book called " warrior of the light" , a book made for the STC hockey people. Oh yes, I was a very active hockey player in my Secondary school days. My life revolved around hockey. Seriously eat, sleep, bathe, hockey. Other than Town all we go is Delta Stadium. No match that day also just go down and watch, and go Redhill market eat :D 

I guess I loved Hockey a lot, because it really made me grow as a person, in terms of my attitude and behaviour. I loved Hockey because it makes me feel good about myself. I don't feel weak, or useless. It's something that I can excel at, it's something that, if I put in 100 percent effort, I get 120 percent back. I have no talent, nor am I skilled at anything. But I picked up skills in hockey relatively quickly. It is only thing about myself that I am proud of! (: I even won the Most Valuable Player award + a Vijayanti stick ok! And I even got into the nats team! And I remember I was forever the reserve during training matches, but when we went over to Malaysia for the tournament, I was never once a reserve!!! And at the end of the trip she bought a few presents for people who "excelled" and I was one of them ! Not expected at all...... Omg feel like crying now. I know if you just got to know me recently, I don't even appear to be the sporty type, but I was! My passion was 100% in it.

You won't believe how obsessed we were.

When we said passion, we could feel goosebumps.

And surprisingly, I am getting them now.

 I loved the idea that we were all so bonded.... everything that comes out of our mouths is hockey.

And then there was our vice principal, who is this extremely inspiring woman, we all look up to her like she's a goddess. She's play awesome hockey, I could watch her dribble forever. She always reminds me of Tyra Banks I have no idea why. And this was what she wrote on my book:

You see how it is inevitable to feel good about myself?

A good change, a good change, a good change.

If not for these people in my life, I guess I'll still be the detestable, bossy, rude, and irritating Teh Weizhen. I miss them... I miss pot lucks at Teresa Ville.. I miss Penang ( We won 2nd and we cried like mad... It's a super prestigious event, like hockey player from all over asia join it! AHHH. And I think Felissa won best player that time * cues touching music* )

Hockey aside! Sorry if I bore you with my reminiscing~

Some of the rings I found stashed in some corner

 Only one head, but many many head bands~

 And I can't believe myself~ Look at what the shit this is??? 

I don't remember buying the oreo keychain at all.. it's the lamest thing I've ever seen. Now that I'm blogging about it, I feel like bringing this to work tomorrow to prank Kelly and let her pound. LOL!!! It's made of rubber~ Really fucking lame. And I can't believe I spent 5bucks on that donut shit? You know when you receive an sms/ phonecall it will blink. I was an extreme donut fanatic I swear. Gosh. Wishing for some donut delivery now :C

So yupp! That's how I spent my Friday night. So cool yo! After exams every one go party.. I come home and pack my room. Haha. Kidding, it was quite well spent! Met momsie at Plaza Sing for some grocery shopping, so happaye! My aunt cooked dinner so we had Curry chicken, Beehoon, Fried Rice , Fish, and Duck! Not bad at all huh. 

But I'll be surviving on chips+biscuits+yogurt+granola+cake+milk+water for the rest of the week.

Not that I'm complaining! Shiok maaaxxx. 

Now all I need is movies!!

If you were wondering why the title of this post, I finally got it figured out. 

Sorry I'm always complaining about how lonely I am. :(

But now, I finally figured it out! \(^o^)/

It's not as though I don't have friends, or no one asks me out, but whenever I'm asked I reply things like " miso lay see...." or " I just want to rust and be mouldy".

Hahahahahahhahaa.

So I shall not feel so bad about myself for not having friends or how lonely I am because I clearly have a choice. I love deeeeeeep thinking.

Keke.

Goodnight all~

Have a night day ahead!

(Anyway I'm damn sad. :'( When I wake up for work, mimi will be at the market having breakfast with my aunties... I'll only end work at 12pm but their flight is 10pm! Means I won't see her until next week. I want to cryyyy :'( She confirm buy me a lot of bread one, tomorrow come home from work sure cry :( )