I'll never make it on my own

It's been a long time since I've gone to that space.
And I only go there whenever I am terribly upset.
It is an outlet for me where I rant and no one reads.
Where I cry and no one hears.
Where I hurt and no one cares.
A place where no one knows my fears.
But it has brought me infinite comfort, for I can write anything I want without being pretentious.

And it did bring comfort tonight, ( not in the bad way) when I came across what I wrote 8 months ago:

"That night when I stayed over at Cy's house, I threw a mad bitch fit. I shouted for him, woke him up, cried, was angry. It was a whole emotional roller coaster for me. But what really stopped me from crying was that, he, despite being awaken from his sleep, did not get angry at me at all. But instead, he kept drawing me into his arms even though I kept pushing him away and kept stroking my hair and told me " baby please don't think this way." He has never given up on me, never given up on us, and I love him endlessly for that. "

When you look me in the eyes,

and tell me that you love me,

everything's alright

When you're right here by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,

I catch a glimpse of heaven.

I find my paradise,

when you look me in the eyes.