I got half a smile and zero shame

I worry I weigh three times my body
I worry I throw my fear around/ But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain


Think I'm super bipolar.
One day I'm in love.
One day I'm out of it.
Today I'm rethinking about it because I'm shameful to be with.
Sorry.
I'm shameful to be with...