Wzhn Allie

Growing up is hard. Growing up is so hard. I'm 20 and I feel like I've exhausted all my strength to live already. Nothing's about yourself anymore, it's about having EQ, about being two-faced to survive. It's about a lot of undesirable traits that you have to acquire which can help you in life. Sure, it can be about you only. You world will revolve around you why not? Your world will revolve around you when you're the only one in your world that is. That is when you wouldn't mind losing your friends , of course I'm not saying you have to stop being true to yourself for the mere sake of keeping your friends. Those "friends" shouldn't even be kept. What I'm saying is, if caught in a dilemma, between yourself and a friend, which would you choose? I've experienced two of such cases in one night and it's been keeping me awake. I feel awful. I am terrible because I'm selfish. Money is the root of all evil. I also discovered a bad side of one of my friends whom I used to be close to and it's eating me up inside because I shouldn't even be thinking that way of her at all. She used to be so lovely. I am a thoroughly horrible person. It's been a long day, I'm gonna treat myself to a good sleep. Sleep soon too.