Midweek

Hello. Long time no selfie! Haha. 

I've been feeling very ugly recently because of my hair and most of time I just wear a cap out now. 

I'm really damn sad super sad. Miss my long hair :'(

And should really learn to smile properly. T_T

 Zouk last Friday! As you can tell.. I'm really the minion among all my friends. 

Received my first (and probably only) birthday card! 

Just saw this on Facebook. About grooms' reactions when they see the bride..

:')

You can see more pictures here!

My tears totally biao out from my eyes please.

Omg so happy for them. I tell you if my friends get married I will cry like mad !! I better do a recorded video speech instead of a live one because I will be sobbing so hard and gasping for air like mad.

AND THAT IS NOT COOL!

I hope these grooms remember exactly how lucky they felt at that moment because they really are...

If someone is willing to spend their entire life with you .. and be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, for better or for worse and for richer or poorer , what more can you ask for?

I was just telling Sijia that I can be single forever already. I don't need this kind of fleeting happiness. 

But after seeing this.... I also want :'(  :'( :'(

I also want someone to feel like he is the luckiest person in the world to have me..

And I will hug him back and tell him in tears that "no, I'm the lucky one"

No one has ever made me feel like they were lucky to have met me...

Don't even say lucky... no one has ever made me feel like they were proud of me..lol.

I don't just want to make ppl happy. If my sole purpose in your life is to make you happy i'd hire a clown for you.

Of course I make people happy every day. 

I'm a funny person what, no? 

I'm sure it's not too hard to make a person happy.

But to make a person feel lucky to have you, that's another story.

I just wish with all my heart, someone would be extremely thankful for my presence. 

And not just, oh you came in to my life >> we had a happy time>> wish you all the best in future>>bye

I guess no one has ever been thankful for my presence that's why no one bothers treasuring me..

But maybe the truth is there is nothing to treasure about? LOL

I have done all that I can. If it's not enough. Then I'll accept i'm not enough.

Hahaha. Sorry very emotional now because i think i'll never be able to get married. Ahhh. That thought kills me. Hahaha i'm kidding. Too much thoughs tonight. 

Goodnight!